Random Thoughts...

[LuvablePsycho]

Man my mom really is a control freak from hell. I wonder if everyone else around my age has parents like her? It's no wonder the current generation of young adults refuses to grow up when they have parents like mine who make it so easy for them not to. I mean all she ever does is tell me that I can never do anything because I'm "limited" and that I'm better off just sitting on my ass and collecting enough SSI money from the government to stay broke for the rest of my life. I really do feel like she doesn't want me to try and do better with my life.

I really hate my life. If I was born without autism or bipolar disorder or if I simply had a more encouraging mother then maybe by now I would be living on my own and making my own choices in life. I could be fully independent like my brother and sister and not worry about having to always ask for Mommy's permission to do anything at 28 years old.

Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. I really do.

[Bloof]

Don't say that. I quite enjoy your "company" on the forum. My mother wasnt controlling but had issues that made my childhood pretty miserable. But you play with the hand you are dealt or whatever that saying is. Your little niece must be a blessing in your life.

[Dead Bad Things]

LuvPsy come on man get a hold of yerself..Put your hang ups down. Please spare me the gory details, we all got our issues and reasons why we can't. The universe is vast and ripe with possibilities and oppurtunity. Be strong.

[Morningriser]

Originally Posted by LuvablePsycho

Man my mom really is a control freak from hell. I wonder if everyone else around my age has parents like her? It's no wonder the current generation of young adults refuses to grow up when they have parents like mine who make it so easy for them not to. I mean all she ever does is tell me that I can never do anything because I'm "limited" and that I'm better off just sitting on my ass and collecting enough SSI money from the government to stay broke for the rest of my life. I really do feel like she doesn't want me to try and do better with my life.

I really hate my life. If I was born without autism or bipolar disorder or if I simply had a more encouraging mother then maybe by now I would be living on my own and making my own choices in life. I could be fully independent like my brother and sister and not worry about having to always ask for Mommy's permission to do anything at 28 years old.

Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. I really do.

It's tough man, believe me I know. I still have family living but none of them are there for me because of a falling-out I had with my grandmother before she died, despite she and I'm making amends with one another Before she died. my point is I don't have a support system either and I know the way the average person is portrayed as having people in their lives and a support system when the truth is not everyone just gets to Skid through life Like we are told we will. Not everything will always be okay and things don't always get better. We are made to believe these things are the norm and we just need to sit back and wait for good things when that has never been the case. ever since my ex girlfriend and I broke up and I went back home I have had to rely on my grandfather for everything because I can't drive anymore. I made a choice, I could sit there on my ass waiting to die while collecting a check and not doing fuck all because I didn't have any friends or anywhere to even go do you have fun so I did something about it and I moved to Las Vegas to start figuring out for myself how to become completely independent. The people here are definitely weird and I don't plan on staying here my entire life but For now this is home. You would be surprised how self-sufficient You will become when you have no one else but yourself to rely on.

[LuvablePsycho]

Originally Posted by Morningriser

It's tough man, believe me I know. I still have family living but none of them are there for me because of a falling-out I had with my grandmother before she died, despite she and I'm making amends with one another Before she died. my point is I don't have a support system either and I know the way the average person is portrayed as having people in their lives and a support system when the truth is not everyone just gets to Skid through life Like we are told we will. Not everything will always be okay and things don't always get better. We are made to believe these things are the norm and we just need to sit back and wait for good things when that has never been the case. ever since my ex girlfriend and I broke up and I went back home I have had to rely on my grandfather for everything because I can't drive anymore. I made a choice, I could sit there on my ass waiting to die while collecting a check and not doing fuck all because I didn't have any friends or anywhere to even go do you have fun so I did something about it and I moved to Las Vegas to start figuring out for myself how to become completely independent. The people here are definitely weird and I don't plan on staying here my entire life but For now this is home. You would be surprised how self-sufficient You will become when you have no one else but yourself to rely on.

Wow it's almost scary how much I can relate to what you just said. I can't go anyway either because I never learned to drive and I have to rely on my mom for transportation.

But the thing is I can't just leave home and move somewhere else. I have tried to run away from home on my own a couple of times and that always resulted in my mom calling the cops on me and having me locked away in a crisis center. One time I tried to make it on my own living in a group home and I was doing ok for awhile until it all got sabotaged and I ended up having to move back in with her because I was staying in a disgusting apartment that didn't even have a working shower. Even if I'm stable enough and taking my medication like I'm supposed to all she has to do is call the cops on me for trying to get away from her and I end up going back to her. Nobody ever takes me seriously but I'm telling you the truth when I say she owns me. I really do feel like she thinks of me as her property.

[Morningriser]

Have you ever thought about trying to find an apartment with a roommate? I would also recommend looking into public transportation where you live and see what kind of disability services are available. No one can take charge of your life but you my friend.

[cheebacheeba]

I got stoned off a medicated brownie at work today.
There's my throw in.

[Bloof]

Originally Posted by cheebacheeba

I got stoned off a medicated brownie at work today.
There's my throw in.

That's becoming legal where i live in a few weeks. I tried it once about 45 years ago and hated it. If i was going to ever try it again, brownies would be my choice.

[Dead Bad Things]

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

[hammerfan]

Originally Posted by Dead Bad Things

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)