Every....Single....Night.....

[VampiricClown]

Something I've shared with few...
Alright, so as only a few of you know of this (and those of you will probably think I'm demented after spilling this), I'm bringing this out, mostly because it's really bugging me...

I have been having nightmares every night since I was 13. Some dreams have good parts in them, but the majority of most of them are really gruesome and horrific. I have blown my own brains out in one of my dreams. Needless to say, that was quite unpleasant.

Most of my dreams are end of the world, apocalypse type of thing. But last nights was the worst, most horrid thing I've ever seen...And that's saying a lot. The bad thing about this one...I can actually see this happening, and most of the dreams I've had have come true at some point. These "nightmares" aren't too far removed from our own reality....A lot of the places I see when I sleep, I see in person at some point or another. For instance, I went to sleep one night and saw my girlfriend (at that time), being raped by her father. I get up after that dream and get online at 3:30 in the morning, my girlfriend was on, and she had been raped about an hour before I got on...By her father no less. This bothers me because if that one, and numerous others I remember have come true, these I've had as of late can't be that far behind....

Last nights, like I said, has been the most disturbing so far.

*****WARNING*****

(The following portion is not for weak stomached people or ones who are easily disturbed. I don't want to even sleep again after seeing this.)

I was with my father, my mother, my wife, and one of my close friends. The world has already been through another world war, the sky is dark even during the day because of all the smoke and gasses that had been released while bombing each country. I go into a store similar to a Wal-Mart to find my uncle, and my mom wonders off to get supplies so we can keep moving on until we find somewhere else to live. I wondered off with my friend into this back room...And what I saw makes me sick to my stomach even thinking about it....They had this girl strapped to a table, completely naked...She looked asian....She was bleeding, and bruised. She was crying so much...Then I see a video camera...filming everything they do to her. They have buckets and plastic boxes all over the place. The slowly saw off one of her fet and let the blood drain into the bucket. Then the other foot...They then took a knife and sliced her mouth open on both sides all the way to her ears...By this time, she's mostly purple and pale from loss of blood, but she's very much alive and in pain. I am unable to stop it because I am in a different room and am in shock. Then they hook her through the back with chains and slice her off at the waist. All over her guts start falling into a bucket and her blood is going everywhere. She looks up at me with a tear in her eye, and coughs up one last bit of blood as her body goes limp and her gaze lowers to the ground as she dies....The people in the room print the box art for the DVD and put it out on the shelf for sale. The worlds new form of entertainment...Snuff films. I get pissed off as usual when someone hurts a female and I go into the store and grab a shotgun, two pistols and some ammo. I give my wife a kiss goodbye in case something were to happen to me, and I go in the direction of the room where I saw this happen. I pass a store with a guy with his stomach ripped open and his guts spilling out onto the floor and he's jacking off...

About this time, I wake up. I went back to sleep, and I picked up after we found my uncle and left. We're in this jeep with a green map radar in the the middle of the night, haven't slept for 3 days, and are heading to a military outpost. My wife and mom are already there, safe. I'm with my friend, dad, uncle, and a family friend. We're all packing ammo, riding on this jeep and seeing fireworks going off. And I learn that this was some sort of job. I'm guessing we were keeping the area clean of intruders. And we come over the hill and I'm on the phone with my wife, as I see these two guys shoving this large object down this one guys throat.

I woke up again, and stayed awake.

But this is becoming extremely disturbing...Every damn night I see these type visions. This was by far the worst. The runner up would be the one where I killed myself though because I saw these people eating this poor woman that had been captured....

And my girlfriends always wonder why I worry so much about them....Why I stay awake....How can I sleep, if all I see is destroyed, demented and broken things. I also know if someones cheating on me, because of my dreams...I can find out anything I want in my dreams....It's just going through the process to find what I'm looking for.

The sad thing...I know it's a dream, I know I'm asleep....

[bloody_ribcut]

good read man, your a prophet.:)
just kidding, i had the same kind of dreams and sometimes it does feel like they come true.

all i can say to you is embrace the dream, it's a descriptive power.

[VampiricClown]

Originally Posted by bloody_ribcut

good read man, your a prophet.:)
just kidding, i had the same kind of dreams and sometimes it does feel like they come true.

all i can say to you is embrace the dream, it's a descriptive power.

Yes it is, I've learned to use them to my advantage. The problem is, they reveal things I wish I didn't have to know. Things I don't want to see. But oh well, what can I do? They're there, and they are here to stay.

And I'd say 98% of all my dreams that aren't post-war, have come true...That's why it all bothers me.

[bleeding_angelgirl]

and i thought i had disterbing dreams, advice from exsperiance dont tell a theripist. i did once saying i had a reacuring dream and then they were ready to ship me away supposingly there arent supposto be reacuring dreams. its bullshit i get them alote

[AmericanManiac]

I'm with you brother, only thing I do different is use them as inspiration. I actually like having these dreams, i write them down and form stories with them. Everynight I try to have them, I found out I have the most fucked up ones after a night of partying. It wakes me up in the middle of the night scared shitless but I don't go back to sleep until I write it down. Then I just keep thinking about it while I fall asleep and most of the time it takes me back to that nightmare. I've had reoccuring dreams since I was 4. They haven't stopped, and i'm sure most of them has came true, and i'm sure this has happend to half of the population.

One of the most fucked up dreams that I really hated was the day before my dad passed away, it was about him passing away. I woke right up and went and checked on him, he was fine. That day we talked like we never did before, like it was his lastday, and sadly to say it was. It did help me get through his passing though, the stuff he shared with me, changed my life drastically, and my eyes were open to the world and I seen how it was. The following days, though I felt like he was in the house with us, the two other members in the house and I felt him there, literally. We all kept it to ourselves untill just a few months ago when I mentioned to my mother, about my expierence, that is when she told me about hers. It's weird though because my dog even had the sense that he was there because she just sat down in front of the chair were he passed and just starred, she never did that.

Anyways, yes you can use your dreams as a very big advantage. You should start documenting these nightmare, maybe you will be the next Steve King :-)

[darkmoon]

I can understand you.I have dreamt alot about the end of the world..I also get these disturbing dreams sometimes.It makes me feel like I am this horrible person for dreaming these things(like it is something I can control).I had people tell me to stop watching the movies I watch and stop reading the books I read because they are the cause of my nightmares,but ive had them ever since i was a little girl.Mostly these day I have been having hypnopompic images.These ocurr right when I wake up and sometimes can be really gruesome and scary.Dreams are pretty weird.

[bleeding_angelgirl]

my mom told me to stop watching the horror movies because they are a portel to satan, my moms crazy she even belives because i practiced witch craft once i need an excorsim because i let in evil. lol but iv felt guilty from my nightmares and my every ay thoughts but hay at least were not boring

[Roderick Usher]

[Doc Faustus]

Damn. Lost both my posts. I posted before I accidently deleted it that end of the world dreams are common in tense political and personal landscapes and that they can be indicative of either one. The solution to chronic nightmares is learning to lucid dream. Nightmares want to be interacted with, they want to tell us things and will not stop saying them until we get the picture, make a change or interact with them lucidly. It's like the early point and click adventure games. The thing won't be solved until you find the right response, in the waking world or the sleeping one. Even if there's an apocalypse around you, your mind doesn't just want to torment you about it, it wants to see what you'll do about it. Resolve your personal apocalypse and the nightmare will go away. I too take inspiration from my nightmares but it's hard to write about people taking out your intestines and making you into sausages, or sometimes it might be just be too personal. Not everyone could identify with my estranged father turning into a black, scaly ogre and raping my girlfriend. But, I was able to go lucid on that dream and decapitate him with a shovel and then put his head in the microwave. The nightmare came back until I found a more mature solution. Lucidity and reacting to the waking world in a way that empowers you are the best ways to end the plague, especially when it comes to dreams about the end of the world.

[_____V_____]

Want my advice? Iron out your daily life into a smooth pattern and stay away from trouble. And watch the nightmares go away poof!

If not, consult a shrink. And I mean it, VC.