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Fuck.
Apologies in advance for the rant. I've been trying to stay positive but this morning all I can think of is FUCK. TODAY. I want to go back to bed.
My fucking shoulder hurts. A lot. I'm pretty sure that it's from a leftover chicken pock from childhood - I realize that I should probably see my doctor but I have no idea what she would or could actually do about it besides prescribing high doses of ibuprofen, which do absolutely nothing.
Also - Seriously - Fuck work. FUCK IT. My manager has put me in charge of a HUGE piece of our Team's budget - I didn't ask for this. I feel like this has been thrown at me because she has no idea what to do with me, which worries me for a whole other set of reasons. Also - Fuck - I'm a Goddamn English Major. I have no desire to deal with finance, numbers, or budgets. I don't care. I can't get myself to care. I HAVE NO FUCKING DESIRE TO MANAGE A FUCKING BUDGET. I should be happy that she's giving me more responsibility - But fuck this. I need to start looking for other positions but I have no idea what I want to do... Also I think I'd really like to leave my company but since I've taken advantage of their tuition reimbursement program to get my MBA, if I leave, I'd have to pay back the tuition that they've reimbursed. Fuck. Luckily it's a big company so there are a lot of internal opportunities but I honestly just don't fucking care about what I'm responsible for right now.
Need to stay positive... I'm getting married November 1st. That's a good thing, and also probably the main reason why I could give two shits about my day-to-day right now... I just want to say Fuck it All. FUCK.
Ok. That was pretty cathartic. Thanks for letting me vent.
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