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obsessed
I have become obsessed with this younger, beautiful ,smart ,alpha male.
I can't pursue him and I WOULD NOT, because I have ethics and he is getting married soon.
I think about him ALOT, I get nervous around him, and my stomach drops when he smiles at me or just stands near me.
I feel my face get all flushed- it's embarrassing.
His body is unbelievable and the way he smells intoxicates me.
Even when sweats...well, especially when he sweats.
It's animalistic in how it makes me feel.
He was spotting me with free weights and I felt like I could easily crawl right inside him- if that makes sense.
I never felt such a powerful attraction to a man and frankly thought that sorta shit only happened in those stupid romance novels.
I know this is just my way of diverting my mind away from my husband..and it does dull the pain and I am much more calm now because when I think of him during the day or about the next time I get to talk with him or run into him around town, it makes me kinda....high, but in a nice valium kinda way.
I think I want to stop this stupid path because nothing will come of it and I need to focus more on my training. I gained 3 pounds cause I have been going the lazy route and eating fast food instead of cooking healthy.
I try to work out more and focus on playing on the kids to get him outta my head, but it isn't working so much.
Anyone ever been in a situation like this? And what did you do to get out of it??
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