[horrorobsessed]

i'm so sorry, and i wish you the best.

as a kid, i know it feels to have a mom who has your problem. i grew up with my mom into drugs (later i found out that it was more intense than i realized at that age...i was about 5 or 6). she had been involved with them for a very long time, but once she finally realized that she had a serious problem she went into drup treatment...and my sister and i went into foster care for a little over a year. it was really hard, for all of us. what pissed me off majorly though was that i had to see a psychiatrist and since i had very frequent nightmares they wouldn't let me watch horror movies. they also thought i was depressed and had diabetes. idiots.

but my sister and i then got to go home, because my mom got over her addictions. like dante said, you have the greatest motivation possible. i seriously don't think my mom would've kicked it if she didn't have me and my sister to fight for. however, she still fights with an addiction to painkillers still. it's nothing major, just a binge about everyother month. i'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything, but from experience it's not pleasant watching your mom (the one's that supposed to be the adult...the strong one) be in that state. it hurts me a lot, and pisses me off too cause i know she's better than that. in fact, it's one of the reasons my sister left home.

i know though, if you're anything like my mom, that you are VERY strong. therefore, you can kick you addiction's ass. i wish you the best.