[Phalanx]

I'll be to the point about it.
Killing yourself is not the best course of action, should that occur.
I'm aware you have kids, and it's not something a kid should be put through, even an attempt can have a very bad effect on the childs perception of you...not to mention, yknow, it's bullshit your family don't need.

Killing them? sure, if you know who they are and that you could get away with it...Rapists are scum, and ought to be fucked off the face of the planet, the lot of them. Some pretty kindly laws now protect these fucks, where the penalty used to be parallel to murder...Don't ever buy into it being about their mental state, they're evil fucking cunts that'd somehow been missed by evolution, and should be put out of our misery, but quick.

That said, if you find legal avenues more within your reach - do what you've got to do, I'm sure the police can hand-hold through the process and counselling or whatever it is they do...

Get yourself along to a sexual health/family planning clinic ASAP to know where you stand on the std and pregnancy factor.
Try to relax, nothing you can do right now can make this better, so roll with whatever, cry if you gotta, go all hermit if thats what suits, move on, then look into measures you can take to keep it from happening again.

- B.