[Phalanx]

So my chick (who some of you know, some don't...)
went out with her niece for her birthday to go horse-riding. I didn't go along since I'd already passed on the birthday wishes to the niece, that and last time I went horse riding, wasn't worth the walking issues over the few following days.
So the two nieces, their mother and Anna were gonna go along.

I guess when you're dealing with a potentially dangerous activity, slight concerns can always flicker across your mind...so I didn't think all that much of it when in the three days prior, I gave the whole "be careful, make sure your helmet is on right" and all of that. My brain wouldn't quit on it...just had a bad feeling someone was going to get injured...but yknow, not being a particular subscriber to any kind've paranormal theories, didn't take it any more seriously that yknow, I was worried or whatever.
I'll state now I think that was just the case, but her, as it turns out, shit happens.

This was yesterday 'noon.
I got a call from the niece just after they were supposed to finish, first line "Anna's ok"...conversation followed to reveal she'd been thrown off a normally perfectly behaved horse, who did it for no apparent reason. So, went into the local hospital where they'd taken her. She fell on her side/back, and was in a lot of pain...After waiting about 8 hours for various tests, turned out she'd sprained a muscle badly, taken a knock to the kidneys, and the worst of it is that she's fractured part of her spine. Nothing near the spinal chord, I'm not sure what you call them, but the bits that stick out on the sides of the main spine, (L2 and L3 if that means anything to anyone).
She can still walk, well, eventually...right now it just causes (more) pain. All going well there will be a full recovery, but there's also the potential of some mobility issues, and ongoing pain, yknow...like, forever. I'm hoping that's not the case.

So, you guys hate hospitals too?
I hate that she can't be home, and that just being there has made her sick too...this thing not healing right even being a small potential is just fucking my head right now...I hate that they won't let me stay with her...it's like, when you've been with someone for so long, and you're so used to them being around, I dunno about you all, but I'm just walking around feeling at a loose end no matter what, it's like empty becomes a state of being. Eating and sleeping go right out the window...I've had about 2 hours since it happened...just in a fuckin' daze, stuck between hoping things are right and screaming at myself to expect the worst...feels like I'm cracking up here...thinking about her stuck there alone, in nothing but bullshit pain, being sick to boot, alone among nothing but strange people...can't even wear her own fucking clothes...I dunno, just haven't had to deal with something like this before...I know work tommorow is gonna be no kinda fun. I just want this to be over.

Playstation doesn't cut it, tv, I've even ran...nothing quits this...and I aint about to just get wasted at the potential of making things worse, so I decided to come in here and unload my shit on you folks...Ugh...sorry, just at such a void right now