[Haunted]

You know what, Return, I knew a guy in hs that was the same way. He was also the sweetest guy in the world. I grew up with him, though he was a year older than me. These kinds of suicides are the real clinchers. You don't see it coming at all.

I've heard from counselors that suicidal people tend to be happiest towards the end, because they feel a sense of relief that it will soon be over. Is that not depressing? Scary? It's not true in 100% of the cases, but it does happen that way.

It's hard to come to terms with, I know. Eventually you sorta, well, you never really find a sense of peace, but you come to a place where you hope that person has found the peace they sought by coming to terms with themselves post mortem. (If you believe in that sort of thing). Maybe it's just something that you have to realize happens and move on with your life.

I hope that you never have to have some one near you do this sort of thing again, and I certainly hope that no one close to you, or any of you, ever does this.