[allmykids]

I won't go into what all is making me feel this way i would be wrighting all day. but lets say i feel like i have been fighting to survive all the shit that has happened in my life for what feels like every day of my life. and i just got some news that i think has finally brought me to my knees. right now i want the people who have hurt my kids to die(NO I AM NOT THREATNING TO KILL ANYBODY). There's a hand gun sitting about 2 feet from me. I'd like to put it to my head and pull the trigger but I don't have the guts. God I can't take the pain and I can't Excape it. Somebody tell me there is something to fight for. Some way I can Win for once in my life. I consider alot of you my friends. HELP ME PLEASE!!! :(