[X¤MurderDoll¤X]

When I'm around someone, I automatically start talking dirty in my head. It started when I was really young and was pretty sure a few people could actually read minds, so whenever I was around people I'd say "blank blank blank" over and over in my head to keep me from thinking evil thoughts. I remember going to the mall and just being like "blank blank blank blank" the whole time.

I still do the same kind of thing today, except I no longer believe in the ability to read minds. Instead of saying "blank blank blank" I start thinking the dirtiest shit imaginable, it doesn't even matter who it is. Like I'll be in the elevator and some fat guy will get on. I'll be like "I wonder if he can read my mind? and then the dirty mindedness just kicks in like it were automatic, some of the stuff isn't even stuff I'd normally think up. Then sometimes I'll get a look and I'm like "Fuck, did I say that last bit outloud?"

When I was younger, after hearing that story of the escaped killler who licked the girls hands in her bed I couldn't let a finger or a toe leave the bed. I used to try and get over it by hanging my hand down, but I'd never last longer than a few seconds. I could never sleep with my closet open either, partially due to my older brother hiding in them one night and throwing them open :mad:

So what fears did you have as a kid? How did you get them and how did you deal with them? Do any of them effect anything you do today in the slightest bit? phew long post. :D