[Death By Jell-O]

Originally posted by urgeok
sorry folks .. i am very evenly keeled.
It takes a lot to push me over the edge ... not to say i dont have a couple of hot buttons but i can control those too.

I tend to internalize but sports helps dissipate that.


what on earth promps the 'cutting' ???
that makes my skin crawl.

I internalize everything too for the most part......But in recent years it seems that I don't anymore.....I've just kind of taken on a fuck all attitude....I don't let things bother me....It's as if I just shrug everything off and don't even let it internalize anymore....I used to be bad...Explosive attitude...A Very Short fuse....Never physically fought, mostly verbal........But now, I dunno.......I just don't seem to care.....Probably not a good stance on everything, but hey, it seems to work.......I still have my ups and downs though not at all as extreme.......Maybe it's in hibernation?

As for the cutting, mine consisted of words such as Anti-Me on my forearm and shit like that........In a way I guess I was looking for help, but at the same time, I would've turned down any help anyone would have offered me......I told myself I was doing it to be "different" and to freak people out, but all in all, that was bullshit......

BTW, I've never spoken aloud about any of this stuff, so you guys better feel special! :D