Well, at the time that it happened she and I had just gotten married. I was still in school and working the night shift at a gas station and she was scooping ice cream at Bask Robbins. We both had minimum wage jobs, and could barely make the rent on our two bedroom trailer.
Eating baloney sandwiches everyday would have been a luxury! As it was, I could only afford to buy discounted junk food at the convenience store, and only ate when I worked. My wife ate ramen noodles and cereal. We did not have the luxury of moving back in with our parents because my mother had just gone through a divorce and had to move into a place large enough to simply accomodate her. My mother-in-law was a widow on a fixed income and she, too, had a one-bedroom place. So yes, we chose abortion (you use the term "killed your baby" so emotionally, I love it. But, I like to keep discussions in the realm of reason) because having the baby would have meant that I would have to drop out of school, thus dooming us both to dead-end jobs that we couldn't live off of. Let alone properly raise a child with.
I suppose we could have gone on welfare, but we were not about to make tax payers help us pay for our child. Going on welfare would have made me and my wife both ceritfiable hypocrites, thus taking away the last shred of dignity I had.
As far as thanking God goes ... no. I thank my father for having a good enough job to be able to afford two kids.
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FROM GHOULIES AND GHOSTIES
AND LONG-LEGGED BEASTIES
AND THINGS THAT GO BUMP IN THE NIGHT,
GOOD LORD DELIVER TO US!
Old Scotch Invocation
-- adapted by Stingy Jack
Stingy's Horror DVD Collection
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