Wondering why there was such a big gap between Snow White and Cindarella.
Like, what happened.

So today I came to the realization of just how grandiose my idea of going into journalism is. When I got out of high school it was my plan to go into journalism, and I wish now I had, because by the time I get my associate's degree from the community college here I will either be 40 years old or damn near 40. And then by the time I got through college getting the degrees I wanted and was in a position to get hired somewhere, I would be in my mid-forties while there are people in their early twenties who can see much better than I can who would get the jobs in an already high demand field as is. I am still going to go to college but I think I am just going to focus on creative writing rather than journalism. I want to see how far I can take it and if I can go all the way maybe I could be a teacher and not have to worry about social security anymore. Right now I think I just went to focus on my writing.

Just fuck it..

It's never too early right? So...Y'all got any plans for Halloween?
Looks like the 31st falls on a Wednesday...so the real party's gonna be on Saturday night the 27th.

I been puttin' my ear to the ground....so far only thing I came up with is an EDM Gothic ball. Sounds good to me...I dig morbid chicks dressed to the nines.

I got my costume...I'm goin' as a Hammer Head shark!

You so have to get Hammer pants to go with it...Hammer Time!

I was thinkin' more along the lines of hammerin' and smashin' some...uh..you know ::wink::

I see...then i guess you dont need pants! ::big grin::::big grin::

Finally saw my new psychiatrist yesterday. I am back on my meds and trying a mood stabilizer too. I should be feeling like my old self again soon.

I hope it works out. ::smile::

I think my meds are finally working now that I am taking them the way I'm supposed to. I have to take them with food and take them so many hours apart and stuff.

This is kind of a random question, but does anyone remember Sublime Directory? ::cool::

I dont remember it but i did google it. Some kind of porn site?

Yeah, sorry, I was bored ::big grin::

Lol, dont be sorry!

Some dating sites are very different than others. Some are 100% free, and folks who would want that are the people you're going to see on there. Then there's pay sites of various amounts -- and just like restaurants, bars & nite clubs -- they're priced to exclude less affluent, or less serious, folks, depending on your point of view. Heck some might say the super expensive ones are helpful in weeding-out the ultra materialistic people out of the regular sites, thank you!

Your profile description sounds perfect. No point in wasting time being too ambiguous about yourself.

Way I see it, post a pic and make a casual date asap. There's no substitute for a pic and meeting in person. Some want to chat and not meet.

What gap are you talking about? ::big grin:: and why do you ask? You mean year of release? 1937 to 1950? not like they didn't have quite a few films between those two.

Well I paid off all my overdue fines at the library...and of got right back into it again. Just about to wrap up the new one by Stephen King: The Outsider. It's really good, the best of his newer stuff I feel.
But wait there's more...they gotta love me down at the library always got a stack of horror literature on inter-library loan ::smile::

The great god Pan and other horror stories: Arthur Machen
Compulsory games: Robert Aickman
We eat our own: Kea Wilson
A people's history of the vampire uprising: Raymond A. Villarreal
Black mad wheel: Josh Malerman
Little heaven: Nick Cutter

I'm starting to get sick and tired of all these TV shows and movies about sociopathic heroes. Where do people get the idea that being a sociopath or a narcissist makes you some kind of superhuman who is smarter and braver than everyone else? Honestly it sickens me...

I also hate the unrealistic way that these people get portrayed on TV. Like the sociopathic antihero who only feels empathy and compassion for one character who they are close with. A true sociopath or narcissist does NOT feel empathy or compassion for anybody!

Besides Dexter, what other shows star sociopath heroes? I watched the first season of Dexter, I'd say I was mildly entertained. In Dexter, I think they displayed him with genuine love for his sister (I think it was), and sympathy, and a sense or understanding of right and wrong. Rather than killing because he was a sociopath, he had a killing compulsion, which he restricted to killing other serial killers. All the same, I understood the concern people has in the concept. (I know you didn't name Dexter).

In regards to staring narcissists, I don't like watching those either, such as Eastbound & Down, some episodes I watched only cause a buddy liked it... which creeped me out a little because I know it's one of his fantasies to treat everyone like subhuman.

Archer is also basically a narcissist hero, but it's a cartoon, and I can stand watching some of those only because it's pretty creative, I like the (older) popculture references, and usually funny, but it's also nonstop insult train, and if not usually low brow, it's submersively crass (I just made up that word, meaning it's always deep inescapably crass) which isn't generally my cup of tea.

Black List, Dexter, White Collar, all of the James Bond movies, Will & Grace (especially Karen), Desperate Housewives, Mini's First Time, Breaking Bad, American Horror Story, Game of Thrones.

There are so many out there that I can't possibly list them all...

And I don't mind the occasional comedic sociopath like Bender from Futurama or the entire family in The Addams Family. When it's tastefully done as a form of humor it's not so bad. But I don't like it when sociopaths and narcissists take on the role of heroes as if they are something to be admired. It's just wrong, it's like a slap in the face to the one thing that makes us humans not so terrible: our ability to feel empathy for one another and to redeem our mistakes because of the guilt we feel.

Man my mom really is a control freak from hell. I wonder if everyone else around my age has parents like her? It's no wonder the current generation of young adults refuses to grow up when they have parents like mine who make it so easy for them not to. I mean all she ever does is tell me that I can never do anything because I'm "limited" and that I'm better off just sitting on my ass and collecting enough SSI money from the government to stay broke for the rest of my life. I really do feel like she doesn't want me to try and do better with my life.

I really hate my life. If I was born without autism or bipolar disorder or if I simply had a more encouraging mother then maybe by now I would be living on my own and making my own choices in life. I could be fully independent like my brother and sister and not worry about having to always ask for Mommy's permission to do anything at 28 years old.

Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. I really do.

Don't say that. I quite enjoy your "company" on the forum. My mother wasnt controlling but had issues that made my childhood pretty miserable. But you play with the hand you are dealt or whatever that saying is. Your little niece must be a blessing in your life.

LuvPsy come on man get a hold of yerself..Put your hang ups down. Please spare me the gory details, we all got our issues and reasons why we can't. The universe is vast and ripe with possibilities and oppurtunity. Be strong.

It's tough man, believe me I know. I still have family living but none of them are there for me because of a falling-out I had with my grandmother before she died, despite she and I'm making amends with one another Before she died. my point is I don't have a support system either and I know the way the average person is portrayed as having people in their lives and a support system when the truth is not everyone just gets to Skid through life Like we are told we will. Not everything will always be okay and things don't always get better. We are made to believe these things are the norm and we just need to sit back and wait for good things when that has never been the case. ever since my ex girlfriend and I broke up and I went back home I have had to rely on my grandfather for everything because I can't drive anymore. I made a choice, I could sit there on my ass waiting to die while collecting a check and not doing fuck all because I didn't have any friends or anywhere to even go do you have fun so I did something about it and I moved to Las Vegas to start figuring out for myself how to become completely independent. The people here are definitely weird and I don't plan on staying here my entire life but For now this is home. You would be surprised how self-sufficient You will become when you have no one else but yourself to rely on.

Wow it's almost scary how much I can relate to what you just said. I can't go anyway either because I never learned to drive and I have to rely on my mom for transportation.

But the thing is I can't just leave home and move somewhere else. I have tried to run away from home on my own a couple of times and that always resulted in my mom calling the cops on me and having me locked away in a crisis center. One time I tried to make it on my own living in a group home and I was doing ok for awhile until it all got sabotaged and I ended up having to move back in with her because I was staying in a disgusting apartment that didn't even have a working shower. Even if I'm stable enough and taking my medication like I'm supposed to all she has to do is call the cops on me for trying to get away from her and I end up going back to her. Nobody ever takes me seriously but I'm telling you the truth when I say she owns me. I really do feel like she thinks of me as her property.

Have you ever thought about trying to find an apartment with a roommate? I would also recommend looking into public transportation where you live and see what kind of disability services are available. No one can take charge of your life but you my friend.

I got stoned off a medicated brownie at work today.
There's my throw in.

That's becoming legal where i live in a few weeks. I tried it once about 45 years ago and hated it. If i was going to ever try it again, brownies would be my choice.

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

::shocked::::EEK!::

Isnt that resin from some kind of tree?

If you do, I wouldn't recommend a strong one as the high is different and lasts a lot longer.

Beautiful!

I wonder if I could make it as an escort or a pornstar? It's always been a secret fantasy of mine. ::embarrassment::

I hate to dash your hopes man but being a male pornstar nowadays is next to Impossible unless you are a pretty boy with A big dick because that's what people want to see. as far as being an escort goes, I'm not sure but I'd say go for it. If you came to Vegas you could probably find something lol

Yep. I'd probably chicken out anyway...yet I have no problem pounding back wine, lol.

I could make myself look pretty if I worked out more but I understand what you mean.

Realistically I don't think I could work in the sex industry not because I'm ugly but because you pretty much have to know the right people and make the right connections. I mean it's not like I personally know of any people who would actually pay for sex plus there's a lot of risks to consider like STDs and dangerous stalkers.

It seems like all the people I know are just giving away sex for free and whoring around. ::big grin::

Because that's all anyone gives a shit about anymore. No one has any respect for anyone or even themselves. I mean that even seems to be what relationships are based off of nowadays. You can be the nicest person in the world but if you aren't attractive you might as well just give up. I mean I get told him was daily what a wonderful guy I am but I'm just not attractive and it really has nothing to do with self-confidence when women are so eager to tell you you are wonderful but not good enough to fuck. Relationships have nothing to do with love and trust and building together anymore, it just has to do with fucking and nothing but fucking until they realize they don't like each other and go their separate ways while the woman complains about not being able to find a nice guy and the guy does goes off fucking some other girl who doesn't give a shit if he's a good man or not as long as she can get that dick.

Yeah it's a tree resin imported from Indonesia..whatcha do is freeze it first then grind it to powder with a nutmeg grater then burn it on a piece of charcoal. ::love::

You guys are just diggin' yer own grave. Riser..c'mon man, you know nice guys finish last. LuvPsy you got the cart before horse man...guys it's really not that difficult. You guys got better prospects then me and I'm still goin' for anyway.

What's it for? You burn it just as an incense, or for other reasons?

I've been an incense head for years..white sage from California, cedar from the panhandle of Idaho, sweet grass from New Mexico, Copal and Benzion from India. Palo Santo from Ecuador. Dragons blood attracts good fortunes and banishes ill ones. Plus it pleases my various gods....easier than slaughterin' goats or sacrificin' virgin's.